Nothing like being free of the working world to really focus on your own personal shortcomings, failures, and bizarre little neuroses. I'm taking trivial things way too seriously right now. Maybe I always have, I just never noticed it before. I have never taken instruction well, and it irritates me to no end. Why do I take constructive criticism so personally, especially when I know that the person is right? Why do I allow it to demean my own self worth? Why do I obsess over trivial crap, and why do I feel a need to debate it? Why is being right so f*&^%$ important? more important than how I treat my close relationships?
I feel lost in a jumble of thoughts and emotions. I feel very confused. I thought I had progressed beyond defining myself by what I DO, but obviously I have more work to do. As for the current state of affairs, I'm reminded of some advice from a book I'm reading. Everyone fails, the only difference between winners and losers is how you handle failure. Thats something else I'm working on.
Not that she will care or anything, being unlinked by a small fish like me, but I took Michele (A Small Victory) off my webroll. Was I offended by her conservative politics and in-your-face attitude? Hardly. I would recommend her to anyone looking for a thought-provoking and well-thought out essay on current affairs. But her new format creates havoc on our poor overworked, under-processed computer, and it crashes rather catastrophically every time I try to visit. Oh well. Maybe it is time for an upgrade.
Posted by J. at September 4, 2003 12:32 AM